and baby(s) make four....

Yesterday was one of the longest days I've had in a long time -- in a good way. I was filled with so many emotions, thoughts, worries, excitement, anxiety, and confusion. Because this blog is my journal, I want to record some things that happened yesterday that I know I will want to remember... and will probably forget.

7:15am: finding out~
Literally stunned as I looked at the monitor while the ultrasound tech said, "Here's one. Oh, and here's two."
Me: "What do you mean?"
Tech: "You're having twins."
Me: "Really? How do you know?"
Tech: "Well, here is one embryo aaaaaand here is the other. There are two separate embryos, so they are fraternal."
Me: stunned and unable look away from the monitor
Tech: "Are you going to be ok?"
Me: "Yes. I'm fine. Just shocked."
I then got dressed -- shaking -- and walked out to the line-up of about 4 or 5 nurses/receptionists behind the main counter all looking at me and smiling with that "knowing smile". They were all very sweet and supportive so it helped calm my nerves...a little.

8:15am: telling Mr. Incredible~
I arrived home, walked upstairs to Jim's office and looked at him with a look of despair on my face (uncontrolled...I couldn't help it). He turned serious and said, "What happened? What's wrong?"
Me: "We're having twins."
Jim: he looked like I had shot him with a stun gun. COMPLETELY frozen in time staring at me. Frozen solid. Then came some expletives...but with a happy face. Then he sat down with a big smile on his face and we talked about it for a bit and then went downstairs to tell the kidlings.

8:30am: telling the kidlings~
Soren: "I know mom, I already told you that it's going to be a girl and a boy." (When I told him I was having a baby the week before, he said, "and you are having a girl and a boy." I said, "No, I'm having a baby and we don't know what it is and it's just one." He said, "It's a girl and a boy mommy." He was very serious when he said it. No joking around. He sounded pretty dang sure of himself, let me tell you. I think I just didn't want to believe him....)
Anna Clara: "Can I hold the babies mommy? I can change their diapers too!"
Daddy (looking at our kitchen table with six chairs around it as I pointed out that we would fill that table with just our family): "Wow. We're gonna have a real family."

the rest of the day: telling family and friends~
The best part of my day was talking to so many stupendous friends and family about it and hearing their, more often than not, laughter and incredibly supportive words. Most people thought it was very, very funny that I am having twins. Many people even said that God must have a sense of humor...I'm not sure I'm getting that humor quite yet.... BUT, I do love hearing people laugh, and, as I've said before, I have no problem with it being at my expense -- and I have no problem laughing with them about it. It's better than crying, right?

I barely got anything done all day. I felt like I was in a daze the entire day...which I was...but still wanting to tell anyone and everyone who would listen. I couldn't tell people fast enough...and I know it's too early to tell people you're pregnant, let alone having twins, but I've never been one to hold back. It's a good thing I don't care because Mr. Incredible hasn't the slightest clue how to keep a secret....

Then...my boy came home from school with this picture he had drawn in his class:

Like father, like son. There is no way this news had any chance of being a "secret".... So why try?

And besides, you have no idea how much those words of support and love and happiness and excitment and joy mean to me right now. I'm gonna need all the help I can get these next 8 months of pregnancy, years of sleepless nights, and decades of raising four (*gulp*) children. There are plenty of women who have done it before me and survived, so I'm sure I will.

I think.